Have you ever ‘wounded’ anyone so deeply
that you lose them for good?
Maybe you had this happen to you;
a person close to you
has done something that hurts deeply
and the pain has yet to go away.
Perhaps it will never disappear,
and you are left with gnawing suspicion and fear.
that costs you freedom
until you lock yourself away for safety
to protect yourself from future harm.
so I can visit family in California.
It is the states permission for me to leave.
it is still a sign that I have yet to regain complete trust.
I am not upset about it.
Three more months, and I can leave when I want
without waiting for approval first.
Then in February, my probation ends,
And I can re-enter prison to encourage others.
(read about it Here)
knew immediately that it was a bad mistake
but not a reason to lose their trust in me.
However, the state knew differently,
and it has taken time to re-gain their trust in me.
But here is the point:
even in the midst of my prison sentence
those closest knew
that my identity is in Christ,
and that God could yet be glorified
in the situation I faced.
when I laughed about making a t-shirt
that would say across it:
I am a Criminal,
and a Sinner,
except that is not who I am.
I am a wholly loved,
and totally accepted
child of the Most-High God!
However, trust comes at a price
it takes time, and some risk,
and it begins with forgiveness.
or let go and release the hand-grip
that holds fear and anger so tightly.
Failing to forgive limits us,
but giving it allows healing to begin
is worth all the effort!