It has taken me some time
but I have finally come to forgive myself.
See, I am responsible for hurting you both.
I am responsible for the pain and suffering you experienced that night,
and in the following time it took you to fully recover.
I am responsible for the fear you faced while riding in the ambulance.
I am responsible for the lost wages at work,
and the missed time with loved ones.
I am responsible for the loss of your friend’s borrowed car.
I am not allowed to contact you directly to convey my sorrow,
and I am unsure if you ever received the letters sent through your attorney.
But I am grateful too.
Because you both lived!
Because you have both recovered fully.
And because my insurance may have provided financially
for some of the pain and suffering you endured.
And I am also grateful for God,
that He never left me alone.
He was with my wife while I was gone,
and through her, God was able to keep me strong.
I am grateful that God has brought me through such an experience,
and to be a better man on the other side.
And while I may never know if you have forgiven me
I want you to know one very important thing...
your experience will not be in vain.
I am now a mentor to other men,
while before I avoided such responsibility.
I coach men going through similar life struggles.
I volunteer more frequently.
And I give more money to those in need.
Lastly, I am a father now,
and I am raising my children in a way I never thought
because through this I have a renewed faith.
My children will be better off because of the man I am now.
May you come to know God the way I have,
May you come to know God the way I have,and may He bless you both with a joy that comes from Him alone!