Life is a series of choices,
and it is Our responsibility - Yours and Mine,
to choose wisely what we will do with our time.
Before Prison, I was often bored & restless,
looking for something,
and not understanding what precisely...
I chose poorly.
I chose to fill my time with anything,
instead of something specific and worthwhile.
Sure, I had some valid 'good-things' to do,
like attending church and volunteering,
taking college classes, and spending time with friends.
But these led me to a feeling of Entitlement,
of filling my time with things less valuable,
and certainly things more risky.
But why not? Didn't I deserve it??
I was lying to myself.
Chasing momentary pleasures in an effort to fill an emptiness inside,
and to hide what was missing from my life...
Meaning. Purpose. A singular vision to strive for.
During Prison, I was faced with still the more choices...
and I took the time to do all I could to better myself.
But why? What is there to do when serving time while incarcerated?
Gratefully, I had some experience in living a life of monotony.
I had been in the military, and worked afterward for many years.
Same thing, everyday, with no real understanding of what lay ahead.
I would then reflect back on my time and ask the most valuable question:
"If I could do it all again, what would I have done differently?"
So I began working hard to live for something new upon upon my release.
It involved three(3) key parts:
- Live for something bigger than myself,
- Improve my ways of thinking by learning, asking questions, and exploring new ideas,
- Pouring myself into other people.