How many times have you fallen down?
How hard did you fall each time?
What is left after you fall?
Did you fall every day?
Perhaps you were addicted to some 'fun' habit.
The routine came quick and easy because, well - it just made sense.
It didnt always feel 'right', but it fit you so well,
almost like a familiar old friend who always accepts you,
until it doesnt anymore, and you go searching for it again.
When you fall, do you scrape the 'bottom-of-the-bucket'?
Maybe you appear as a smoking carter to everyone else,
like a passenger airplane that has crashed again,
taking everyone inside down with it,
and all thats left is the smoldering remains.
What is left afterwards?
Have you found yourself all alone?
In the remains of what once was -
did your closest people leave you?
Or perhaps you have made 'new & exciting friends',
because now you are incarcerated.
You get to meet counselors, attorneys, police, correctional officers,
maybe a judge, a cell-mate, and the psychiatric staff.
And were there any victims? Besides yourself??
What once was your bright light,
looking for excitement by connecting with others like it,
has turned into a plague...
feared by all except those who want to eradicate it.
What is left after all of "this"?
Is there anything "good" that remains inside of you?
If so- can it be redeemed?
Lets start with the truth; You- are a disaster.
And once that settles in, consider this:
You still have something Worthwhile inside of you.
If there is anything valuable, where inside your being would it be hiding?
In the deep recess of a cave?
Completely covered under a blanket?
Even if it is immersed in water - can it still burn bright?
The answer is "Yes!"
But- not without help.
You wont get there on your own, and...
you wont re-ignite it without hard work.
You may have Lost what makes you special,
but you can Find it again.
And in the process... you may discover something new about yourself.
For now - I leave you with some thoughts
by others who have known setbacks and failures.
- Everybody has felt at some time in their life that they were losing their mind. It’s not as big a deal as you think it is. In fact, only rational people have that fear. You are broken, but you are not crazy. You’re also in good company, because we’re all broken. We all have insecurities, fears, and habits we don’t like. - Rick Warren
- “Everybody has their own private Mount Everest they were put on this earth to climb. You may never reach the summit; for that you will be forgiven. But if you don’t make at least one serious attempt to get above the snow-line, years later you will find yourself lying on your deathbed, and all you will feel is emptiness.” - Hugh Macleod
- "I’ve seen some things I never wanted to see, been some places I never wanted to be—they’ve cut me deep. And unable at the time to process the sting in a healthy manner, I developed this habit of silence where the expectations and opinions of others eventually eclipsed the real me."