I am (totally) selfish in my capabilities
and completely undone in my own strength.
Often I awake in the morning
and plow ahead without pausing
to consider how things should be done
and instead do that which I can.
But sometimes, my strength fails me.
I awake sick or exhausted,
struggling in my allergies to breathe (or sleep).
You may not know this
but even minor allergies
can affect a person's ability to concentrate.
My fatigue keeps me from thinking.
I dont react, but I do respond.
I am unable to live with energy,
but instead must stumble to complete anything.
Yet this is when God takes over.
He provides answers through the Holy Spirit.
And all I can do is wait on Him.
I dont like this feeling of powerlessness-
however this is when I am most available to God.
I cannot figure things out on my own,
and so I must wait on Him to guide me.
When I am strong, I normally rush ahead
without taking time to seek Him.
Yet when I am weak, all I can do is pause
to consider what God might have me do in this moment.
And this is when I am most effective for God,
other people, and even myself.
Because in my lack,
I cant figure things out when I am left alone.
Thank You God -
that in my weakness
You are with me,
leading me, protecting me, and providing a way for me,
to bring Yourself glory in ways I could never do!